A New Day

Yesterday I forgot to pray and my pretty good morning slowly moved into a crappy afternoon into a really shitty night. My husband snapped at me a few times and apologized but then snapped at me again and I snapped! I left. I couldn't be in my house anymore and it would have been a perfect time to go to a meeting but instead I chose to wallow in my own misery about what I don't even really know. I came back and treated my kids/husband like crap pretty much for the rest of the night.
And now as I am writing this I still feel something...I just don't know what it is.....So I guess I will pray about it and hopefully figure out what it is and deal with it.
8 months ago I would have felt guilt and shame and thought about 5:00 and when I could open my bottle of wine.
Today I feel hope and different and okay.

I know that I am in Recovery

My Daily Affirmation for today:

How do I know that I'm recovering? I know that I'm recovering because I'm standing up for myself. Nobody can put me down anymore.
I know that I'm recovering because I am teaching my children to be themselves-and to be proud of it.
I know I'm recovering because I can feel.
I know I'm recovering because I'm seeing the reality in all situations. I am refusing to be hopeless about anything.
I know I'm recovering because I realize that the failure in any of my relationships was not my fault. I am not a failure because a relationship didn't work out.
I know I'm recovering because I don't have to do everything perfectly.
These signs of recovery did not appear all at once. Gradually, through time, I am noticing changes that let me know that my struggle is worth the effort.