Okay, here goes~
I don't know much about blogging. I'm not really that hip, although I was back in the day...Maybe me talking "out loud" will help in my recovery.
I have been sober for about 6 months. I did not hit a "rock" bottom. I decided to quit with the help/pressure of my husband and father. My Dad has been sober forever. Was a director of a treatment center. (which I worked at) So he has helped tremendously.
I was always the type of kid that did everything the right way, was "perfect" but did not get rewarded for it. My mother resented me I think. So even in getting sober, I'm doing it the "right" way. I know I could go wayyyyyy down farther. I try to keep that in the back of my mind. The alkie in me wants to go there. I want to say Fuck off to everyone and drink into oblivion. But the good girl says no..too much guilt.
Can I get better doing the right thing? Even though I was punished as a child for it. We will see.
